How I wish I can turn back the time

Currently

Soulless

Mood

Waiting

Words of the day

People will never love someone if there is no threat of leaving

Talent : Hasif Rahman, Syifasya Ramli and Nora Syakira Azmi

Place : Somewhere at Putrajaya

Using : Canon 1000D with 10-22mm

Outing : Personal

March 19th, 2011

It's just my personal thing that keep on hounting my head. Yes, I miss them both so much. Really wanna..really wanna....I really wanna meet them, smile with them, talk with them, laugh together. What the heck I'm crying..Months ago both of them were the only person that accompanied me. Seriously said, my phone full with their text. Because of several things, yes, it's my bad, things changed and it's like we never meet before.

I miss both of them so much. If only I can turned back the time and be someone better. I don't need love if I have them. I rather be single forever as long as they are by my side. I know they are doing well out there. With Syifasya currently in relationship, doing well as practical teacher, Nora now studying at UITM Puncak Alam, they hang out together like almost every week. I'm happy for them. Sometimes I wanted to text them, really do but I stopped. So afraid to text them, afraid that things will turn bad again. So it's better to step away. If we managed to meet together again, I know that things will not be the same as before.

No matter what, years coming, as long as I'm still breathing, both of you will never miss in my pray. I pray to Allah everyday for both of you, to be well cared by Him, for your happiness and success. I'm giving my best to all of you and I'm really sorry if it's not enough. I'm just a simple person, not rich, not fashionable, really simple. Thats me, Hasif Rahman.

So many things to say, so many things to share, but none was there. I know I will end up crying alone. It's like almost everyday. It's 2 a.m in the morning now, and yet, I'm here typing an entry. I can't sleep, crying, red eyes. I'm ok if they hurt my feelings, I will never put a grudge on them, but I will hurt my feelings if my actions hurts theirs.

As I said before,

"I gave everything to my bestfriends, happiness, my care towards them, lend my ear to hear their problems, lend my shoulder to share the burden, lend my mouth to talk with them, lend my lips to smile with them, lend my eyes to cry with them, lend my nose to smell good foods with them, lend my hands to comfort them, lend my legs to walk the life together and the most important thing, lend my heart to protect them, but they left me when they found someone better, yet I never change to give all above to the new one before they left me again."

 Friends come and go but believe me, my love towards all of you will never fades.

Yours Faithfully

Hasif Rahman